the miracle of flight
unraveled in a big can of baked beans
pulsing connections
terminals and the salty sweat of a soft pretzel on the run
Sanskrit chants remove obstacles
promise wheels down
joy & bliss or at least some
om shanti om
you’ll grow while I’m gone
tell stories of swim lessons
episodes and the new texture pack on your list
what I do I do for you
how might I sing that in Sanskrit
I only know what I gave you these four days on soil
a marshmallow named Marvin who’s best friends with Arnold the asparagus
how their band brought everyone together for the big field trip
the nightmares on request of Annie the electric guitar-playing apple who stumbled into an easy bake oven and came out a pie much to your astonishment and
I can’t breathe through the laughter
There were cannonball demonstrations on a cloudy day
you in repose with a green cookie shake
fries seeping through brown paper on the dashboard
we made characters out of sharpies, napkins, coffee jackets
I nursed your eye
warm washcloth and headbandz
guessing cards on my head
do I have fur
legs
am I a vegetable
til you beg for more story twists
poor Carlie the cookie found the summer area at the store and took the twisty slide right into a glass of milk where the giant hand came down and
will you remember water balloons and wrestling matches with your mama the night before she boards another plane
or the stories I tell you on demand
or the late night snack attacks
details don’t matter because you know me
always resting in your center
bear
butterfly
fig tree
this is the alchemy of love
upended by circumstances
the map we can’t see with our eyes
just trusting we found home
in sand, mountains and your mama’s poor imitation of ground squirrels
you tell me the time will go quickly
murmuring this stinks in case you didn’t know
I know, my love
the echo of surrender
we find magic in portals and screens
your papa planted firmly
keeping us rooted in
kale shakes
gigantic cookies shaped like spider-man
what you don’t know is
I’m teaching you how to show up
when I show up
for you
for shuttles, flights and flip charts
I bring your rocks with me
sacred altars to us
you tell me
throw this one on the bed when you’re mad
hold this one to make you happy
you stay at my center
smoothing out the parts that cry for storyline and sweatpants
show up my son
allow for delight
see the eyes of all you meet
their hearts will follow
say thank you
for in every moment lies a gift
even when I’m missing you
because in that
lies the home we built with papa
it’s our house of gold
Legos, wetsuit, dodgeball
and that grid on the mantle
calling out
brave love
brave, brave love